Last week, I wrote about how I am trying to keep my heart open after heartbreak. It's really f*cking hard, but I'm surprising myself... I'm doing well. A couple days go, I had a lovely experience which lifted up my vibes and led to a cool revelation.
I went to a Corinne Bailey Rae concert in Seattle on Tuesday night. I've been a fan of her music since I was a teenager, so seeing her live was a dream come true! I was in the front row, bobbing along to every song. I felt so alive. It was the happiest I've been since the break up.
On Thursday, I led a full moon guided meditation in a friend's Facebook group. I felt called to make the theme about my truth. While I led the meditation, I encouraged the participants to ask questions about their truth and to notice what comes up for them.
- What is my truth I need to speak?
- What is something I truly want to do?
- What am I truly meant to pursue?
- What is my truth?
For me the answers were truly amazing.
I realized that I wanted to truly live it up. I wanted to show up as me. I wanted to dance through life, the way I danced through the concert I went to. I realized that now was the time for me to do all the things I wanted to do, and say all the things I wanted to say. Because if not now, then when? There is no need to dim my light to avoid offending someone, I will shine as much as I want.
When I am in a relationship, I often try to fit my a lot of my life plans into the relationship. I try to set goals that are compatible with my partner's and I get excited about doing certain things with them like traveling or going to an event. I feel most comfortable about exploring life when I am with someone. It gives me confidence to go out and try new things when I have a partner to support me and confide in. However, I'm realizing that I should just do all the things I want to do alone.
If you're curious about finding your truth, here is the guided meditation. I edited the live video I did so you only get the meditation part. Enjoy! Let me know what you think. To get access to the meditation and my Samadhi Lounge, sign up for my list for the password.