Week 1
January 17, 2017
Today, I meditated for 10 minutes at around 6:39 p.m. in my living room.
It was a tough 10 minutes, because I was sitting with lots of emotions. I felt depression, envy, hurt, insecurity, doubt, anxiety, etc. Stories replayed in my head. Planning happened. Near the end, I was able to find a sense of gratitude -- but it was fleeting. Although I had my breath and lovingkindness phrases to ground me, I found it to be a really tumultuous session. But somehow, I am okay with that. I am not okay with all the messy feelings in my life, but I am okay with me being mindful of those things.
I think a klesha theme from this session was avidya, or ignorance.
January 18, 2017
Today, I meditated for 10 minutes at around 11 p.m. in my bed room.
I decided to lie down for my meditation. It was more bearable than yesterday, but it's still difficult to settle my mind. I noticed a lot of thinking, planning, and dreaming. I found myself having to accept where I am, to accept that I have the thoughts I do. It doesn't mean they control me, but they do co-exist with me.
January 19, 2017
Today, I meditated for 10 minutes at around 6:30 a.m. in my bed room.
I had to wake up early because I had an appointment at 8:30 a.m. I don't know if it was because I was still sleepy, but I had a relatively pleasant meditation session. Some thinking, some planning, but it went smoothly. I didn't feel bad about myself for any of the thought clouds that passed by in my mind sky.
January 20, 2017
Today, I meditated for 10 minutes at around 3:30 p.m. in my living room.
It was difficult, but I did do a loving kindness meditation. I sent out loving kindness phrases to myself, to politicians, and to the nation as a whole.
It's easy to want to hate, but I think it's very necessary to practice radical love and push that love toward action.
January 21, 2017
Today, I meditated for 5 minutes at around 9 a.m. in my boyfriend's room.
He was preparing the sign for the Womxn's March we went to in Seattle. I did a lovingkindness practice and offered it to people I knew and people I didn't know. I offered it to the Trump ladies, to my women friends, and to all women of the world.
May you be light. May you be loved. May you be safe. May you live life with ease. That was what I offered. I felt inspired and grateful afterward.
January 22, 2017
Today, I meditated for 5 minutes at around 10 p.m. in my bed room.
I felt restless but happy.
January 23, 2017
Today, I meditated for 5 minutes at around 10 p.m. in my bed room.
It felt peaceful. I was sleepy.